honestly, i have been doing nothing but stop myself from grabbing my blade from the trashcan and just.. ngh i don’t know anymore. writing this sucks but this blog is the only thing i can come to right now. my bestfriend, who i have been getting my strength from, just gave up on me. i know we’re still bestfriends but.. it’s different now. things change and i regret a lot of things. i don’t usually say that, but really, i do. i shouldn’t have take advantage of his kindness towards me.. i don’t know anymore. i’m starting to give up on myself too. god, being an officer everyone counts on can be really tiring but being alone through everything? now that’s depressing.
i have never felt so alone in my entire life and this time, it’s 100% my fault. if i could just bring the old friendship back, i would. i definitely would.
i love this so much
This actually made me cry…
this always makes me cry
i promise to try. is that good enough?
thank you so much. demi lovato would be so proud of you. thank you for this.
thank you, anon. i wish you weren’t an anon. i bet you’re beautiful.
thank you. thank you so much. this simple messages like this already means a lot to me. so thank you.
don’t mind if i do
i wish you didn’t go as an anonymous. but thank you for this. means a lot.